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Here and Now

by Aysanabee

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1.
I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time, ooh I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time, ooh I don’t wanna waste my time You’ll go your way, I’ll go mine Cos I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time Are we strangers now? I don’t recognize this house I can hear your voice but don’t recognize the sound We were in the clouds Now we’re falling to the ground Are we strangers now? Tell me, are we strangers now? I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time, ooh I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time, ooh I don’t wanna waste my time You’ll go your way, I’ll go mine Cos I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time What have we become? Tell me what replaces love? I don’t see it in your eyes I don’t feel it in your touch All we did was try Tell me did I try too much? I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time, ooh I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time, ooh I don’t wanna waste my time You’ll go your way, I’ll go mine Cos I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time, ooh I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time, ooh I don’t wanna waste my time You’ll go your way, I’ll go mine Cos I don’t wanna waste my time I don’t wanna waste my time
2.
Letting Go 03:20
Can’t ask a tree not to grow Can’t tell the summer not to go If there’s one thing that I know Can’t get blood from a stone People they change We’re not meant to stay the same Ooh are we letting go Ooh I can’t carry what I can’t hold Can’t ask the wind not to blow Can’t tell the summer not to snow If there’s one thing that I know Can’t get warm from the cold And out hearts break But that’s just how they’re made Ooh are we letting go Ooh I can’t carry this no more You know that I’d stay If there’s love left here to save Tell me are we are we letting Honey tell me are we letting go Ooh are we letting go Ooh I can’t carry what I can’t hold Ooh are we letting go Ooh I can’t carry this no more
3.
Alone 03:33
Never fought so hard for a losing battle All this blood, sweat and tears and these broken bones Never fought so hard when I didn’t have to Through the flood and the war and this broken home Are we living to forgive or are we giving up? Is it better, is it better, is it better… Than being alone… Being alone Being alone Being alone Never lost so much on a memory All this love, all this life, I’ve been losing grip I don’t wanna be, I don’t wanna be enemies But staying here, laying here will be the end of me Now I’m choking on the notion that love is enough Are we better, are we better, are we better off? CHORUS Being alone…. Being alone Being alone Being alone When loving you means losing me No matter what I do, I’ll be Alone I’ll be alone Bridge: Are we losing, are we losing, are we losing us Are we better, are we better, are we better off Being alone…. Being alone Being alone Being alone When loving you means losing me No matter what I do, I’ll be Alone I’ll be alone
4.
Are you happier, in his arms, in the television light? Does he speak to you?....... Say everything right? Does he know you, like I know you, like the right side of the bed, When you come home late……, from your friends. I’ve been wondering through your garden, Did I give you enough to grow? I’ve been walking through this empty house, Did I give you enough to go? CHORUS: So let me hold you, Hold you like you’re the old you. ‘Cuz you’ve been holding on to me Like somebody else. So when it falls through, Am I there? Am I holding you? Or am I holding a place… For somebody else? Are you laughing, are you crying? Is it hard to catch your breath? Does he get that same smile…., from when we met? I’ve been humming down these empty halls, Sung the writing on the wall. Did we know our song was ending? When we let go of it all. CHORUS: So let me hold you, Hold you like you’re the old you. ‘Cuz you’ve been holding on to me Like somebody else. So when it falls through, Am I there? Am I holding you? Or am I holding a place… For somebody else? I’ve been living somebody, I’ve been living somebody, I’ve been living somebody else’s life… Ohhhh - I’ve been living somebody, I’ve been living somebody, I’ve been living somebody else’s life…
5.
Here and Now 03:31
One million roads Could of led us here and I’m sooo tired of giving innnn t’ fear Can’t shake that empty feeling I get wondering if what I feel is regret One million times I coulda set things straight But I didn’t try, didn’t know what to say I miss the times, just a child, in the grass, not a care, wish it coulda lasted Why does my mind skip like a stone And I can’t let go, I’m everywhere but here and now Why am I - falling ahead, like the past never left, I’m anywhere but here and now One million lives And we’re livin here I know you tried While I disappeared Can’t shake this aching feeling I get My mind wanders to where we met To this place in time, left behind, frozen in the dark and I can’t Recognize you and I Mourning all the pieces I miss the taste, the suuuun onya face, not a care, wish it coulda lasted Why does my mind skip like a stone And I can’t let go, I’m everywhere but here and now Why am I - falling ahead, like the past never left, I’m anywhere but here and now Why does my mind skip like a stone And I can’t let go, I’m everywhere but here and now Why am I - falling ahead, like the past never left, I’m anywhere but here and now
6.
The Giver 03:24
I’m not giving up I’ve just given all I can I’ve given in to things I can’t control We’re not giving up We’ve just given all we had We’ve given everything and that’s enough Yeah that’s enough I wouldn’t give it up You were up on stage I wouldn’t give it up The moment that you sang I wouldn’t give it up Even just a memory Of all the things you’ve given me I wouldn’t give it up I wouldn’t give it up We’re just giving in But it doesn’t have to take From all the things we gave I wouldn’t give it up We were on the sea I wouldn’t give it up You were laying next to me I wouldn’t give it up If it’s just a memory Of all the things you’ve given me I wouldn’t give it up You asked me to write you a love song I could not, ‘til you were gone And it’s enough We’re just giving up All the things we couldn’t be We’re just giving in Because we’re at the end of things We’re just giving up Holding to these memories Everything you’ve given me We’re just giving in I wouldn’t give it up I wouldn’t give it up I wouldn’t give it up I wouldn’t give it up

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Explores Indigenous love and loss in the modern era, a departure from his first record which combined music and journalism and told the story of his late grandfather, the EP offers a glimpse into another side of the artist. In Aysanabee’s own words, “This is the first of more records that will explore the impact of colonization on Indigenous love in this country. This country never made me feel worthy of love, and in turn never made me feel worthy of the love of another. Through this record, I wanted to be honest by facing my own fallibilities when it comes to building and keeping relationships. In upcoming projects I hope to dig deeper into this concept as a whole.”

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released October 20, 2023

All songs produced by: Derek Hoffman except Alone produced by Charlie McLean and Letting Go produced by Scott McCannel
Vocal production on Alone and Letting Go by: Derek Hoffman
All songs mixed by: Derek Hoffman except Alone mixed by Charlie McClean

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Ishkōdé Records is a new Indigenous and women-owned label created to foster and amplify Indigenous voices. Ishkōdé Records arrives to amplify and advocate for Indigenous artists, songs and stories in the commercial music landscape. Led by artists, organizers and activists Anishinaabekwe Shoshona Kish and solo artist Métis Amanda Rheaume, The word Ishkōdé means fire in Anishinaabemowin. ... more

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